My first husband and I split in 2008. Just two short years after we got married. I can’t say it was a happy marriage. I don’t even think we were ever really in love. We just sort of tolerated each other.
We met in 2003/2004 and were married in June of 2006. Our daughter was born Nov. 2006. “We” were forced to move in with his dad January of 2007 because Tony FORGOT to pay $525 rent. The managers refused to accept it late and we moved without being evicted. Two weeks into staying with this father, his mother said I could no longer stay; she didn’t live there, she just didn’t want me there.
By this time, Tony started working as a cop in Brawley, CA. So from Jan 2007-Jan 2008 the kids and I stayed at my moms and Tony would come home, if and when, he got a few consecutive days off. I spent my first anniversary with my friends from culinary school, in my mothers living room, drinking wine and watching tv.
In Jan 2008 my husband “failed to meet the terms of his probationary period” and he was released. So he too moved into my moms’ house. A LOT of things happened during this time and by Oct. 2008, I had had enough and I asked him, very politely, to pack his things. I had to free myself.
He took his clothes, his son and my car.
*At the time, I don’t think I was working full time and he had his own car*
So naturally, I am very confused as to why now, in 2017, (this started in 2015) am I getting all the extra drama. I try to explain to him that I hold no grudges against him and in my eyes, we are good but boy oh boy does he fight me every day. Or at least try to.
I won’t lie, before medicated meditation, he used to push my buttons to the point where I would be crying and doubting myself. He knew exactly how to manipulate my emotions.
Once I was able to slow down my thoughts and really think things out, I was able to see clearly the entire situation. He was bringing me down to his level and then beating me with experience. So I had to rise above.
Which, you guessed it, pissed him off even more. Meanwhile, my daughter can’t understand why her father is acting this way and I just lowkey wanna go back to the way things were between him and me.
What changed? ME!
I honestly had little to no drama with him for YEARS. If he’d get mad, he’d disappear. He knew I’d need him before he needed me and he treated us as such. I promise I am the only thing that changed. I grew up. I filed for child support. I filed for child support because I was tired of being talked down to every time I asked him for money to help out with our daughter. He’d give it to me, but never without issue. I THOUGHT it would be easier, just a steady payment each month $230, nope….it’s a fight.
Now he’s not taking her to school on the days he is supposed to. Now he won’t even come to the front door when he picks her up, he texts when he is outside. He won’t take her to the dentist, he won’t pay cell phone bill, won’t add storage to the phone. He has even gone so far as to say my parents can’t pick her up from his house when they have been doing it for almost two years. I keep trying to explain to him that all he is doing is affecting our daughter but he is content in knowing that for just a moment he has inconvenienced me.
He could literally be the hero in his own story yet he chooses to be the villain.
Meanwhile, I have to protect my daughter from the person who used to be my partner. Unfortunately, he knows all my all my weaknesses. But he underestimates my strengths.
For those of you fighting the good fight for your children…..KEEP FIGHTING!!!
My battle is by no means over, in fact, we go BACK to court in December. But I do know, that when you are right, you are right. I am not rude, I do not hold her from him, I let him act how he acts and I will continue to “do me”. If you are putting your kids first, then it will all work out in the end!